Rend

I've been having a hard time reading the Bible lately without looking words up. It's actually quite annoying because i don't have a dictionary and always have to do it on my phone. So, I need a dictionary.

But really, I don't know how I read the Bible before. All the words I look up are common words, that when read in context are easily figured out, but when you find the meaning it changes everything. (at least for me it does) I'll show you:

We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us. We implore you on Christs behalf: Be reconciled to God. 2 corinthians 5:20

ambassadors: a diplomatic official of the highest rank appointed and accredited as representative in residence by one government or sovereign to another, usually for a specific length of time
: a diplomatic official heading his or her country's permanent mission.
Appeal: an earnest or urgent request, entreaty or supplication
Implore: to appeal to in supplication; beseech to beg for urgently; entreat
Reconcile: to reestablish a close relationship between.

So we look at it differently
We are therefore Christ's diplomatic official heading our permanent mission, as though God were making his urgent request through us. We beg you urgently on Christ's behalf: Reestablish a close relationship with God.

It just makes it more real to me.
Today i was reading joel. I came across the passage that says, "Rend your heart and not your garments. Return to the Lord your God, for he is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love, and he relents from sending calamity."

I looked up Rend and found a meaning i wasn't expecting .... to tear or split apart or into pieces violently. And i thought to myself that God is constantly asking us to do that. To tear our hearts apart. I think sometimes our hearts get very cold and hard. When we voluntarily open our hearts to God, we have no choice but to let our hearts be torn apart, because that is exactly what He does when we let him... He is a jealous God. He wants all of our hearts, not pieces.

Onething09

It only feels right to blog about it...

So we are suppose to be at onething09 right now. I can't explain to you how I feel about it. It's sad, but it somehow feels right. I truly believe if God wanted us there, he would let us be there. But he really hasn't opened doors and I have to believe that is for a reason. I was looking at the schedule today and realized, we could still leave today because we'd still get a full day tuesday, wednesday, and thursday. And inside, my heart aches because I know it will be big. I got an email today from them telling me that Loren someone is coming last minute because he felt led to speak. He was with youth with a mission and My heart ached a little more. But like I said, it feels right in some sick and twisted way.

I'm intrigued by how spirit led ihop is. I really am. I haven't really seen this in such a big organization before and I want to be a part of it. Big time.

Emily the Weaseler.

First of all, I'm blogging 8 blogs because for some reason 8 came out of my mouth and I aspire to a better blogger than emily and she said that I had to do 8 because 8 came out of my mouth. And i told her not to hold me accountable to anything that I ever say, but she is.

Second of all, my blog's title was simply suppose to be Emily, but for some reason Emily the Weaseler came up highlighted and then it just stayed there. So I'm going to look up Weaseler and make sure its not bad and it might not even be a word... It's not a word, so it stays.

Emily is leaving me to live with her soon to be husband Jonathon Ketchum. And her new name will be Emily Renee Ketchum, which I think sounds good. She's not only leaving me, but she's moving all the way to California. So, two (maybe 3) good things come out of this. 1) I get a new friend because I'll no longer be friends with Emily Bickel but I will now be friends with Emily Ketchum. I just hope I like her as much as Emily Bickel. Only time will tell. 2) I get to hang out in California all the time. 3) Im deciding that there's more than 3 possible good things. 4) I will no longer have to deal with having no matching socks, but jon will :) sorry jon. 5) I'll get to hang out with a Little Jon or Little Emily when they decide to have babies in less than 8 years. 6) When Jon becomes more of a rockstar and I save up my money like I said I would, we'll get to go shopping in california, which I've never done before. 7)I'll actually get to hang out with zechariah because Emily won't be there to hog him.

So, I'm sure there are more than 7 amazing things that will happen when emily moves away. I'll keep you posted. But really, she's the most amazing friend I've ever had and I'll miss her dearly but Jon will be much more blessed than I to married to here soon! :)