I've been sitting at Caribou for hours. I opened up my journal and this is what i wrote:
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I often wonder how close we can come to You. And i know the answer is all up to us, but can we walk with you? Can i truly hear your voice and talk with you? I know you are there, but sometimes i don't hear you. Am I not listening? Am I unable to understand your language? How close can we come? Could I ever feel your hand touch mine?
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I stopped writing because "The Stand" by Hillsong came on. Lyrics:
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So what could i say?
So what could I do?
But offer this heart, Oh God,
completely to you.
So I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the one who gave it all
I'll stand my soul Lord, to you, surrendered
All I am is yours!
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In this moment all I could hear was the voice of God telling me that this needs to be my creed. That I need to be completely His and I will find the answer to my question. Then, "I will rise" by Chris Tomlin, came on. Lyrics:
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And I will rise
When He calls my name
No more sorrow, no more pain
I will rise, on eagle's wings
Before my God
fall on my knees,
and rise...
I will rise
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Do I need to explain that? And finally I read Psalm 143. It is an amazing psalm. "I spread out my hands to you; my soul thrists for you like a parched land." and "Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for i have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you i lift up my soul. Rescue me from my enemies, O LORD, for i hide myself in you. Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground."
Amen.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Gospel Conference Part 1
I of course was listening to a podcast from cornerstone in Simi Valley, California. This was the kick off of their conference right before easter this year. This guy Jeff V something or other was speaking. Amazing. He was a guest from out of town and his passion was amazing. He was so awsesome that 10 minutes into it, someone so kindly brought him water so he wouldn't die from being so excited. I could blog just about his great speaking, but it goes much deeper than that.
Here are some of the things that stood out to me:
1. There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ.
Yes, I know that is a verse and very well known at that, but last night it truly popped. He went on to talk about sin and how long we dwell on it. Maybe when we first start out it can be days at a time before we go to the cross. I know when i first became a Christian i struggle a lot with forgiving myself for what had happened in the past and especially how i misrepresented Christ by even saying i was a Christian. Basically, we need to know that because Jesus died for us, if we linger over our sin for a few days, we are worshiping ourselves. We expect ourselves to be able to fix it and we are upset with ourselves. We need to recognize what Jesus did for us and undertand that we can't wait a single moment in sin, We are forgiven! We just need to ask.
2. "We do what he has called us to do because of what He did. And it was good. And it was enough."
3. "How does this work, we see to have our hope on heaven. Then, we live in today and we experience difficulty and we find ourselves completely living in this difficulty, completely dependent on ourselves, but we have no problem trusting God for eternity after death. Why do we do that?"
This really hit me, because it's so true. Especially in my life lately. With school and lack of money and other issues, it seems so easy to get wrapped up in my life. But how on earth, if i cannot trust my God for 90 odd years of my life, how can i trust him with the rest of eternity? It makes no sense. I'm done not trusting.
4. "God saved you so that HE can have what HE wants."
Amen.
Here are some of the things that stood out to me:
1. There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ.
Yes, I know that is a verse and very well known at that, but last night it truly popped. He went on to talk about sin and how long we dwell on it. Maybe when we first start out it can be days at a time before we go to the cross. I know when i first became a Christian i struggle a lot with forgiving myself for what had happened in the past and especially how i misrepresented Christ by even saying i was a Christian. Basically, we need to know that because Jesus died for us, if we linger over our sin for a few days, we are worshiping ourselves. We expect ourselves to be able to fix it and we are upset with ourselves. We need to recognize what Jesus did for us and undertand that we can't wait a single moment in sin, We are forgiven! We just need to ask.
2. "We do what he has called us to do because of what He did. And it was good. And it was enough."
3. "How does this work, we see to have our hope on heaven. Then, we live in today and we experience difficulty and we find ourselves completely living in this difficulty, completely dependent on ourselves, but we have no problem trusting God for eternity after death. Why do we do that?"
This really hit me, because it's so true. Especially in my life lately. With school and lack of money and other issues, it seems so easy to get wrapped up in my life. But how on earth, if i cannot trust my God for 90 odd years of my life, how can i trust him with the rest of eternity? It makes no sense. I'm done not trusting.
4. "God saved you so that HE can have what HE wants."
Amen.
P90X
Yesterday was the first day of my adventure with emily into P90X land. Let me tell you that we did yoga yesterday (separately) and it was SO boring and so long. I got really hungry mid-way through, and since i was so bored, i heated up my leftover bad for you cheeseburger, ate it, and continued on with the work out. Not a great start.
So, today thinking it will be better i planned on waking up early to do plyometrics and lo and behold, i did not wake up and here i am at work. My plan is to truly do it when i get home. Which i will, because i got excited today thinking about how in shape i will be! AWesome!
I'll give you my updates as needed :)
So, today thinking it will be better i planned on waking up early to do plyometrics and lo and behold, i did not wake up and here i am at work. My plan is to truly do it when i get home. Which i will, because i got excited today thinking about how in shape i will be! AWesome!
I'll give you my updates as needed :)
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